for almost seven years, i was a cutter.
even to me, someone who engaged in that kind of behavior for so long, the word - & idea that someone could actually cause physical harm to oneself on purpose - still scares me. for someone who has never been close to someone who self injured or engaged in self injury (SI), it can sound absolutely terrifying.
♥ [01] use a sharpie & decorate a part of your body you would normally injure with tiny, pretty hearts.
♥ [02] call your best friend & vent.
♥ [03] take a pen & write - pressing as hard as you can - in a journal.
♥ [04] put on a Disney movie & remember how it felt to be young.
♥ [05] walk outside.
♥ [06] open your bedroom door.
♥ [07] drink a cup of herbal tea.
♥ [08] practice calligraphy.
♥ [09] call a friend who also self injures & might need something to distract her, too. get together.
♥ [10] eat something you love.
♥ [11] put on a bathing suit & remember how much more beautiful your arms/legs/stomach look without fresh scars.
♥ [12] re-organize your room.
♥ [13] leave your house.
♥ [14] buy a henna kit & practice giving your skin beautiful non-permanent designs.
♥ [15] punch something. hard.
♥ [16] blow up balloons. pop them.
♥ [17] give yourself a hug.
♥ [18] file your nails.
♥ [19] envision your perfect life. write about it.
♥ [20] read about the law of attraction.
♥ [21] put on hot pink lipstick & kiss random parts of your body. apologize for hurting it.
♥ [22] tear up an old stuffed animal that you no longer feel attached to.
♥ [23] pay the 15 minute game. say you won't cut for 15 minutes & when that 15 is up & you still have the urge, repeat the game.
♥ [24] remember this quote from charles bukowski: "if you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose."
♥ [25] play with an animal. go out & buy a small one like a hamster if you don't have one. give it love.
♥[26] buy yourself a book of logic problems. solve them.
♥ [27] buy yourself a new pair of shoes & play paolo nuitini's "new shoes" while dancing around in them.
♥ [28] pop bubble wrap.
♥ [29] make your own list of 50 things to do instead of self injure.
♥ [30] google quotes by anyone you find inspirational (try william blake, courtney love, marilyn monroe)
♥ [31] read this short story by francesca lia block.
♥ [32] cook something.
♥ [33] hold an ice cube to your wrist (or wherever you self injure) for one minute.
♥ [34] if you don't have one already, start a diary. whenever you feel the urge to cut, write instead. retrain your brain.
♥ [35] try the rubber band trick & wear a rubber band on your wrist. snap the band lightly whenever you feel the urge to cut.
♥ [36] exercise! (try yogatoday.com for a free yoga class once a week)
♥ [37] play dress up. take lots & lots of time. be meticulous about your makeup.
♥ [38] throw away all the old clothes you hate.
♥ [39] write someone you dislike a letter. tear it up.
♥ [40] play wii sports.
♥ [41] masturbate. for real.
♥ [42] music can seriously affect your mood. listen to the grateful dead.
♥ [43] while you're at it, create a whole grateful dead radio station @ pandora.
♥ [44] then, make "touch of grey" your new cell phone ring tone @ myxertones.
♥ [45] hang out with someone. anyone.
♥ [46] play dance dance revolution.
♥ [47] take a hot shower.
♥ [48] watch a scary movie.
♥ [49] scream.
♥ [50] play with play doh. create something.